On the eve of my 26th birthday, I must learn to forgive.. I admit I have been a very resentful person. There is nothing anyone has done to me in all my years under the sun that I’ve been able to forget. I guess I’ve been going about some things the wrong way. Out of sight out of mind does not always work. I’ve continued to do the things that I thought I was removing from my life. Today is a good time to let go and be FREE. I have allowed resentment to enslave me. I thought I was doing the right thing… at least the best thing.
Today it is important that I learn to forgive. I must! It’s the only to truly be happy. I forgive you for all the things that I once harbored in my heart. By forgiving you, I am accepting that I have wronged myself. Some may confuse pride with strong convictions; I call it a pity-party. By harboring ill thoughts towards others, you are declaring yourself a victim of them and in the process you grant them a power that no one should have over you. I have for far too long allowed this feeling to grow within in me. I declared myself the innocent bystander, when in reality I was encouraging all the things that I allowed them to get away with. Today I end it. Today I accept my faults and rid my mind of this feeling of victimization.
From today forward I will continue to be me. I will be myself. I refuse to change my views and thoughts to please others or impress others. Anyone who refuses to accept me flaws and all does not deserve to be a part of my life.
In forgiving you, I am also forgiving myself for once being so weak. I guess that from that turbulent experience I have learned that everything that has happened to me has been a direct consequence of my actions (deliberate or not.) My naïveté is no longer a worthy excuse. My decade and half in this world has so far brought happiness, tears, laughter, anger, resentment and finally…forgiveness.
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